_remade into sumthin better .

ah ;
why do i feel so low? Lately ive been feelin as tho i shud be in a better place, a better atmosphere, with new ppl, new surroundings, new obstacles. Im so sick of the same shit i wake up to everyday .
DAMN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jst had to get tht off my chest.
i hate the days i wake up happy and for no reason later on in th day
i lose it. like i dont have that sense of security that everything will be finee
keana.
I WANT THAT RITE NOW !!!!
(sigh)
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HANDZ DoWN
he has began to control my feelings and my whole atitude. I hate
it when im not as happy as i wanta be. Yess i know i hurt
you but im sorry and im tryna handle thiss th best way i can for th both oF us.
i was only tryna keep it one hundred. why cant u
jst understand that??? i mean isnt that wat u want, wat we need?
"iF u wanta be done thn why do u CONTINUE to keep coming back??"
NOw, shit i would kill to have u back. It seems like its impossible
for us to be happy
and actually stay that way
lOL DAMN
whats wrong with us? if thiss isnt where we wanta be, thn shit where is it?
why do we do things to hurt one another when
in th end were only hurting ourselves.
smh ....


Im so bouncin out of th AV
once school is over. im jst so over the city, the people, the everything.
I wanta start over new, experience things outside of this shit hole.
i know once i leave i can leave behind alotta excess shit that doesnt need to
follow me.

move if u wanta .

ah;
im ready to start dancin again. Luam is a straight KILLA. she murders the choreography off th top of th dome. I wanta take one of her classes one day...

Jst a lil bit .

Soo like im super bored. okay so not when i have a new truck i jst bought last week and cant even drive it. Its a GMC bravada. I cant drive it cuz i dont have the Ls, and i dont have th L's cuz i have a fkkn $1723 ticket from that one time i was drivn dirty home from work. lOL. once i handle that, gettn th L's from th DMV shud be a breeze. I hate not bein mobile. Its not a prob cuz i have ppl to get me where i need to be but it suxx when u have a new truck waitn for yo ass outside collectn dust. SMH .mmmhmmm. but yeh i had to complain abt tht one. Anywho, jst got back to th casa from hittn th mall wth RONRON. THats my nigga, hes one of those big funny niggas. Ah; i love happy funny ppl like him. Their so fun to be around. haha. Anyways yeh we hit th mall up and i coppd a few things. My lil sister Alexis some 6 RINGS. I wanted to get her the all white and pale blue ones but they werent in her size. I miss my princess thO. i barely see her cuz im workn and skool and crap. Shes so bomb and she has a smart ass mouth. Got it from her big sister (ME!!). She looks up to me tho. She'll tell my mom to whoop everybody but me whn she my mom gets to fussn at anybody she sees whn shes pissd at sumthn. hahaha. i ♥ her. &nd Dont ask to take a picture of her. Shell get to posn in a quick second and thn get upset cuz u askd to be in her picture. She takes pictures solo, LMFAO. she a trip.
But yeh
I also coppd a few other things. Our mall suxx tho. The Antelope Valley Mall never has shit u want. uggghh .its pitiful. I cant wait till they build A FOREVER 21. Its gon be all over for wETseal. Now i love Wet Seal but they aint got shit on FVR21. MANN WHN I GET mobile im gonna be so off th AV MALL. ah; I cant wait. heres a few items tho that i coppd for th evening.



















I need to do sumthn tonite and all my girls are out doin their thang but me. ahh; plus Deandre's ass has to go to work and he has a fkkn atitude cuz i dont evr call him. My thing is, and he knows it, I dont call ppl. AT ALL. i jst have thiss thing abt not wantn to bug ppl. Its stupid but i feel like if ppl wanta talk thn they can hit me up. U know.. Mayb u dont. But i dont hit ppl up unless they hit me up. Thn u can avoid th dull convos, fake laughs at shit tht aint funny, and th ppl who dont know how to tell u they dont feel like talkn so they wont be rude. Its jst th way i feel abt certain things on hittn ppl up.
But yeh. NJOY urr evening folKZ .

ValentinES ♥

ah ;
supp bloggers. any ways hope every one had a great VALENTiNES day .
Mines was cool.
put on matchn outfits wth Deandre and hit up Chilis. Chili is our fkkn spot . The chicken crispers and buffalo wings gOO!!! we were sposd to take pictures in our matchn 8's but he wasnt as enthusiastic abt it as i was so i was like fuck it, fuck everything and took a nap. then he calld me aND WAS LIKE WHY U AINT WANTA TAKE PICS??? i responded by sayn i aint feel like it. then he was like be ready at 5 so we hit up chilis. After we pretty much chilled and watched the ALL_STAR game .and i must say Dwight Howard is a beautiful creature. His arms are so clean compared to every other baller thats fkkn tatted up. dont get me wrong I love tats on other dudes its jst that our generation is takn that shit overboard. U kno..Mayb u dont. But yeh his superman shit wth the 12 ft. rim was bananas. ANYWAYS, yeh we chilld and Made Valentines day love. After, before he went to work he dropped me off at th movies to go see FRIDAY THE 13th wth the bestie AERI and her girl. Lesbians are so fkkn funny!!! Yeh Jason was alrite tho. The fkkn intro was pOPPN. go and watch it. That was pretty much a wrap on my nite

_p.s. I love dudes that talk alot but when they talk soo much that they dont give u a chance to laugh aT THEIR shit or atleast say sumthn thn i get irate.
Jst sumthn i wanted to say abt a random dude that hit me up last nite out th blue .

Ultra True Flights .

AH;
i fell in love with these bad boys .
;]
I think ima cop th black and red ones
and ill be cool off the team J's for th moment .

recap .

So this past week i saw 2wo of the most greatest movies in 08'.



the curious case of Benjamin Button

_ah; i loved me some Benjamin. Movie was so good and cultivating. Tho it was 3 hours long I loved every minute of it. Boii did i love pitt on tht motorcycle jst breezin thru with one hand. Tho it started out as an ugly baby he grew into a very handsome young man. I advise everyone to go &nd see it cuz i absolutely loved it.

7 Pounds





_honestly i cried 2wice in this movie. It was so touching &nd inspiring. Like after seeing it I swear I wanted to help anyone i could with their problems mentally &nd physically. Will Smith is one of my favorite actors &nd he playd the hell outta this role. I love him not to mention his ass is jst as fine. mmm..Yeah this movie was awesome and it had me boo-hooing in th end .

2008

yOO 09' is approaching &nd as i look back i see and notice that ive changed so much mentally and physically. Now that i think abt it, 08 went by knida fast. I remember the new years countdown like it was yestrday. A bunch of us posted at th homie Donalds house for a phat ass kickbak and me and deandre becoming a thinq. lol. altho ive made a few mistakes this past year i've learned from every single one of them. From trying to cover up stupid shit so my dude wouldnt find out to sayn foul shit to ppl to hurt them, from putting weak things before jesus, setting poor xamples for my lil sister, arguing with th grams, waiting to th last fkkn minute to get ready for work, lieing to him in his face(sthu cuz ive learnd that honesty is th key to a healthy relationship &nd im changing), &nd not being able to take criticism from others. But anyways all these things that ive overcome has honestly made me a better person thn wat i was before 08> so thts th point i wanta make. Anyways my 08 fell along the lines of

-starting a new relationship aftr gettn to kno him for four months

-gettn a new job

-fokusing more on skool and $$ lik i needed to

-blowin off $$$

-meeting new ppl

-seeing tons of movies

-becoming addicted to polos

-developing a fetish for Jordans[his fault]

-turned 18

-getting my car impounded

-Lots of Wet seal

-gaining and losing th weight

-got drunk for th first time[realizd it wasnt for me]

-went through abt 4 cell phones

-broke a sidekick and an ipod all in one month

-had to fight only once at a party

-bought lots of shoes

-stressing

-lots of bby making lol

-too many arguements with him

-th same 2wo besties shoulders to cry on

&nd a wholee lotta more shit i cant think of rite now. Man o man 2008 was a killer . ill never forget it &nd i wont . My only goal tht i wanta work on is managing my $$ better. I swear ill walk in th mall with a set item tht shud be purchased and ill walk out with 20 different things but that. As a matter of fact 1/2 of me &nd dude arguements were abt me handling my $$ poorly .hmm. smh. I really

wanta develop a better way to handle $$ cuz after i leave my grannys pad ima be in somme serious shit b.

lmao.

Thats abt it on any goals i need to work on.

08 was cool tho. Nuftnn horrible or super ovr th top besides my car. Even th loved ones in my life experienced a great year.

-No regrets, Just lessons learned.

A few pics of 08'

BJ's/snow day

Wow. Thiss week has been a mess. Excuse my absceness. Me and my twin sisters bday was aight. Coulda been so much better. I woke up and my babe took me to the mall to grab a fit. I let him pick the fit and honestly it was bomb.
He usually hates following me around th mall to shop but he didn't complain cuz im th bday girl and I woulda jap slappd his ass if he did. Anyways I copped a fit thn went home to get dress so we could roll out to LA.
Sooooo......

The plan was sposed to be a big ass dinner party at BJs up at the delamo thn clubbn rite. Wrongg. I fkkn hate BJs man. Their service is crappy and th waiters are fkkn slow. Okay yeh I admit it was a good 40 ppl up there for out party but tht doesn't xcuse th fact tht we were sposed to have reservd tables. That we definitely did not have when we got there. We ended up waitn for tables for fkkn two hours thn when we were finally seated it took them 30 mins to get us our drinks and almost an hour to bring one person their food. To top the shit off half our guests food was cold. The dinner party was overall pretty cool. We all reminisced on the past, laffed at stupid shit, a few of us got turnt up, and pretty much njoyd ourselves. Anyways long story short we didn't end up leavn BJs till abt one o'clock. We didn't make it to th club cuz it was gonna close in an hour so we pretty much wrapped things up and calld it a nite. But yeh that was preety much how the bday went



a few pix
of the nite
before we had dinner
Sidekick was lame
all th bomb pixx are on my aunts fone so
ill update em later


me &nd the twin .










my lil sister jazzy














































MOVING ONNN ....
SO like why are we in the process of moving into a new home. Yeah and get thiss...Its rite next door from our home.lmao. Its the same xact home as the old one but this one has a way more deeper pool. I hate fkkn moving tho, especially with my grandma. She is one of those old womans who clutters their home with as much furniture as possible. I admit she has pretty expensive furniture but damnn its too much. I hate moving shit. Plus its snowing outside so we can't do shit but wait till th weather gets better.
Hahaha. Time out. Why th fuck did my sister jazzy give our dooog peanut some juice. Stupid trick.
Anyways back to this stupid transition to our new home. I can't wait till were done wid this shit. Woot woot!!! Becuz its snowing so flippn hard we have no school tommorrow. Yesh !! Tht means our finals for tomorrow are super xcused. Yehyeahh !!{ice cubes voice} check our block and our home. Im gonna make a snow man in th morning. LAME but idgaf really. It hasn't snowed in a year and I miss it.

our pool .





Xoxoxo
Keeko .

Ill choreography .

Luam .
Girl is Killn em .
By far shes one of my favorite choereographers .
her stlye is so raw and shes very versatile .
whether its a slow mix or
a club bangerr her skills is off the chains .
shes amazing &nd yoou never know wat she has
in store for her next routine .
She's worked with artists from Rihanna, Luda, Kelis, and
even Kanye to name a few .
Big ups to Luam doiN her thang .


A few of my favorites
from her work .




Jockn Jay-z


Swagger like us



Strip Tease

Yes InDEEdy ;]

were qood were qooD ;]
It tOOk us a minute but were bck to greatness .
We jst really needed
to find an understanding amongst eachothr .
man we were really on the rocks these pass few weeks



but im happy thinqs are fallinq back in place
+ He surprised me with an early Birthday present .

Birthday this saturday
ON DEc. 13th


* pink &nd grey 5's
*matching pink poLO