recap .

So this past week i saw 2wo of the most greatest movies in 08'.



the curious case of Benjamin Button

_ah; i loved me some Benjamin. Movie was so good and cultivating. Tho it was 3 hours long I loved every minute of it. Boii did i love pitt on tht motorcycle jst breezin thru with one hand. Tho it started out as an ugly baby he grew into a very handsome young man. I advise everyone to go &nd see it cuz i absolutely loved it.

7 Pounds





_honestly i cried 2wice in this movie. It was so touching &nd inspiring. Like after seeing it I swear I wanted to help anyone i could with their problems mentally &nd physically. Will Smith is one of my favorite actors &nd he playd the hell outta this role. I love him not to mention his ass is jst as fine. mmm..Yeah this movie was awesome and it had me boo-hooing in th end .

2008

yOO 09' is approaching &nd as i look back i see and notice that ive changed so much mentally and physically. Now that i think abt it, 08 went by knida fast. I remember the new years countdown like it was yestrday. A bunch of us posted at th homie Donalds house for a phat ass kickbak and me and deandre becoming a thinq. lol. altho ive made a few mistakes this past year i've learned from every single one of them. From trying to cover up stupid shit so my dude wouldnt find out to sayn foul shit to ppl to hurt them, from putting weak things before jesus, setting poor xamples for my lil sister, arguing with th grams, waiting to th last fkkn minute to get ready for work, lieing to him in his face(sthu cuz ive learnd that honesty is th key to a healthy relationship &nd im changing), &nd not being able to take criticism from others. But anyways all these things that ive overcome has honestly made me a better person thn wat i was before 08> so thts th point i wanta make. Anyways my 08 fell along the lines of

-starting a new relationship aftr gettn to kno him for four months

-gettn a new job

-fokusing more on skool and $$ lik i needed to

-blowin off $$$

-meeting new ppl

-seeing tons of movies

-becoming addicted to polos

-developing a fetish for Jordans[his fault]

-turned 18

-getting my car impounded

-Lots of Wet seal

-gaining and losing th weight

-got drunk for th first time[realizd it wasnt for me]

-went through abt 4 cell phones

-broke a sidekick and an ipod all in one month

-had to fight only once at a party

-bought lots of shoes

-stressing

-lots of bby making lol

-too many arguements with him

-th same 2wo besties shoulders to cry on

&nd a wholee lotta more shit i cant think of rite now. Man o man 2008 was a killer . ill never forget it &nd i wont . My only goal tht i wanta work on is managing my $$ better. I swear ill walk in th mall with a set item tht shud be purchased and ill walk out with 20 different things but that. As a matter of fact 1/2 of me &nd dude arguements were abt me handling my $$ poorly .hmm. smh. I really

wanta develop a better way to handle $$ cuz after i leave my grannys pad ima be in somme serious shit b.

lmao.

Thats abt it on any goals i need to work on.

08 was cool tho. Nuftnn horrible or super ovr th top besides my car. Even th loved ones in my life experienced a great year.

-No regrets, Just lessons learned.

A few pics of 08'

BJ's/snow day

Wow. Thiss week has been a mess. Excuse my absceness. Me and my twin sisters bday was aight. Coulda been so much better. I woke up and my babe took me to the mall to grab a fit. I let him pick the fit and honestly it was bomb.
He usually hates following me around th mall to shop but he didn't complain cuz im th bday girl and I woulda jap slappd his ass if he did. Anyways I copped a fit thn went home to get dress so we could roll out to LA.
Sooooo......

The plan was sposed to be a big ass dinner party at BJs up at the delamo thn clubbn rite. Wrongg. I fkkn hate BJs man. Their service is crappy and th waiters are fkkn slow. Okay yeh I admit it was a good 40 ppl up there for out party but tht doesn't xcuse th fact tht we were sposed to have reservd tables. That we definitely did not have when we got there. We ended up waitn for tables for fkkn two hours thn when we were finally seated it took them 30 mins to get us our drinks and almost an hour to bring one person their food. To top the shit off half our guests food was cold. The dinner party was overall pretty cool. We all reminisced on the past, laffed at stupid shit, a few of us got turnt up, and pretty much njoyd ourselves. Anyways long story short we didn't end up leavn BJs till abt one o'clock. We didn't make it to th club cuz it was gonna close in an hour so we pretty much wrapped things up and calld it a nite. But yeh that was preety much how the bday went



a few pix
of the nite
before we had dinner
Sidekick was lame
all th bomb pixx are on my aunts fone so
ill update em later


me &nd the twin .










my lil sister jazzy














































MOVING ONNN ....
SO like why are we in the process of moving into a new home. Yeah and get thiss...Its rite next door from our home.lmao. Its the same xact home as the old one but this one has a way more deeper pool. I hate fkkn moving tho, especially with my grandma. She is one of those old womans who clutters their home with as much furniture as possible. I admit she has pretty expensive furniture but damnn its too much. I hate moving shit. Plus its snowing outside so we can't do shit but wait till th weather gets better.
Hahaha. Time out. Why th fuck did my sister jazzy give our dooog peanut some juice. Stupid trick.
Anyways back to this stupid transition to our new home. I can't wait till were done wid this shit. Woot woot!!! Becuz its snowing so flippn hard we have no school tommorrow. Yesh !! Tht means our finals for tomorrow are super xcused. Yehyeahh !!{ice cubes voice} check our block and our home. Im gonna make a snow man in th morning. LAME but idgaf really. It hasn't snowed in a year and I miss it.

our pool .





Xoxoxo
Keeko .

Ill choreography .

Luam .
Girl is Killn em .
By far shes one of my favorite choereographers .
her stlye is so raw and shes very versatile .
whether its a slow mix or
a club bangerr her skills is off the chains .
shes amazing &nd yoou never know wat she has
in store for her next routine .
She's worked with artists from Rihanna, Luda, Kelis, and
even Kanye to name a few .
Big ups to Luam doiN her thang .


A few of my favorites
from her work .




Jockn Jay-z


Swagger like us



Strip Tease

Yes InDEEdy ;]

were qood were qooD ;]
It tOOk us a minute but were bck to greatness .
We jst really needed
to find an understanding amongst eachothr .
man we were really on the rocks these pass few weeks



but im happy thinqs are fallinq back in place
+ He surprised me with an early Birthday present .

Birthday this saturday
ON DEc. 13th


* pink &nd grey 5's
*matching pink poLO

Is ths a Wrap ?

hola.
I know i havent realy put anything up for awhile. Lo-key busy wid applications and scholarships
and shopping &nd a whole lotta other shit. My world seems so crazy rite now from hopinq to get accepted to a good school, to finding money to go to one, to shoppn for lovd ones and their gifts, tryna maintain school and the ppl tht gO there, helpN gramms wid stuff at home, to maintainin a relationship thts so far on th rocks that thiss may actually be a wrap. Speakn of this relationship the heart of my life rite now is Deandre. Weve been together since New Years. Like we actually got togethr 5 minutes aftr the countdown. Crazy ritE !!!Lemme jst give you an insight of wat dude is about. Hes a Bomb lookn dude, 9teen, flyer thn evr, dark &nd tall, ralphn Lauren/lacoste &nd creative Recs/Jordans wearn guy,[ stay fresh], sweet, he puts me 1st, he keeps me laced in the flyest, workn man, in college, pushn, he'll make sure his family has everything they need before he spends any $$$ on himself, he loves kids and he's jst an all around great guy. But gettn to the point like eveery relationship we have our downs. Weve really been having trust issues as far as eachothr. At first it was him for the first 7 months but as time progressd I noticd that I myself was havn issues as well. Now whn I say trust issues btw me &nd him I mean as far as whos this # in ur phone, or why is ol dude askn to kick it wid u, or why didnt u answer ur phone wat cud u have possibly been doing...&nd questions of that nature. Now of course a good relationship jst wont work without trust &nd we both know that but everytime we find ourselves tryna get over it shit keeps comn up &nd we end up at square one again. Now i kno i cud get ovr the whole trusting stage &nd trust him cuz hes a good man &nd i kno hes not reckless out there but its him !!! he cant trust shit i do fOR SHIT! Okay i admit ive lied a few times ovr dumb stuff but Ive learnd frm these mistakes &nd im trying not to let it happn again. They were reckless mistakes that i thought at the moment wouldnt make him upset but all they really did was add to more problems &nd confusions that we jst didnt need. Ive definitely learned frm the mistakes. But for some reason he jst wont let it go. I mean if you love me &nd you want ths like you say you do thn Ima need you to let the past go so we can grow in
thiss relationship. Besides trust being the problem every othr week for us, thiss week was anothr horrible one....
So i guess its this girl thats supposedly all his homies think is ugly or watevr and its his homegirl. which is fine. i dont mind homegirls as long as they know their boundaries. But ol girl calls way too much to tlk too him abt BS. Plus she dont need to be calln whn me &nd Deandre togethr. So me &nd him were sleep &nd she calls and I answerd it. i surely let her know tht were sleep rite now and whn he wakes up hes gooin to work so ill have him call u whn he can. Yess. jst like tht. so I told him abt how i felt- like she was doin to muchh in her texts and she calls way too much. Ovr steppn her "frndly Boundaries" &nd it led to an argument like shit always does. he felt like I shuda jst kept it 100 &nd i shuda told him tht same nite, tht i dont lik any of his frnds, Im beginning to play games now and hes passed tht level or watevr to where sometimes it makes him not want to be in this relationship. &nd I let him know tht If he felt tht way thn maybe he needs to rethink this relationship &nd decide if this is where he wants to be or not. He can use tht level stuff if he wants too but tht has nuthnn to do with wat i approachd him with. yeah Okay mayb i shuda jst let him kno tht nite how i felt instead of aktn upset &nd sayn nuthn was wrong knownn i was pissd off at tht hoe but still he shud have atleast took into consideration of where i was comn from. So yeah i havent heard from him since monday &nd its now thursday.[the longest of these 11 months weve gone without tlkn to eachothr.] Soooo well see wat happens. Apart of me wants to let go &nd focus on the othr important things in my life, but apart of me still wants thiss . at the end of the day thiss is someone that i truely care about &nd LOVE.