_remade into sumthin better .

ah ;
why do i feel so low? Lately ive been feelin as tho i shud be in a better place, a better atmosphere, with new ppl, new surroundings, new obstacles. Im so sick of the same shit i wake up to everyday .
DAMN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jst had to get tht off my chest.
i hate the days i wake up happy and for no reason later on in th day
i lose it. like i dont have that sense of security that everything will be finee
keana.
I WANT THAT RITE NOW !!!!
(sigh)
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HANDZ DoWN
he has began to control my feelings and my whole atitude. I hate
it when im not as happy as i wanta be. Yess i know i hurt
you but im sorry and im tryna handle thiss th best way i can for th both oF us.
i was only tryna keep it one hundred. why cant u
jst understand that??? i mean isnt that wat u want, wat we need?
"iF u wanta be done thn why do u CONTINUE to keep coming back??"
NOw, shit i would kill to have u back. It seems like its impossible
for us to be happy
and actually stay that way
lOL DAMN
whats wrong with us? if thiss isnt where we wanta be, thn shit where is it?
why do we do things to hurt one another when
in th end were only hurting ourselves.
smh ....


Im so bouncin out of th AV
once school is over. im jst so over the city, the people, the everything.
I wanta start over new, experience things outside of this shit hole.
i know once i leave i can leave behind alotta excess shit that doesnt need to
follow me.